Life Lessons

Life has thrown me in a million different directions over the last couple of years. Just last year, I had just moved out of a toxic household and was living with my aunt and uncle. Life was good and I was starting to heal so well, as I was in an environment that wasn't stressing me out and it allowed me to be the person that I truly am. I went a few months just living life and healing myself. I then met a boy who I fell completely in love with. At first, the relationship was wonderful. I had never felt so in love with someone. This man quickly became my best friend. Over the next year, the relationship grew increasingly toxic. There was always something going on. This man and I ended up moving in together after 5 months of dating. We got a nice one bedroom apartment together and built a little home there. We even got a cat for our one year anniversary!

I honestly believe living together made the relationship even more toxic. I was definitely becoming way more dependent on him than I would like to admit, and he wasn't ready to treat me right. It just wasn't working out. We had some of the best times living together, and I can't say that I don't miss the cuddles every night when going to sleep. But, we decided to split and I moved out into my own apartment. I know it's for the best, but there are a lot of things I miss about living with a significant other. I will never forget those happy moments. 

I can definitely say I've learned my lesson about moving too fast in relationships, especially toxic ones. I saw the red flags and I ignored them. And while we were living together, I felt trapped. Any time I would catch him doing something wrong, I felt like I couldn't leave because we had a lease together. I'm very grateful for the split, though. I feel like it has taught me a lot of things and has shown me how strong and capable I am. I know I'm going to love living in my own space once I have it set up how I want and I'm adjusted. I'm happy to have my cat here to keep me company. Hes the cutest! 

I will say that things always happen for a reason. I try to remember that even the bad things are happening FOR me, not TO me. I'm grateful for all of life's experiences, no matter how painful. It's all helping me to grow into the person I'm meant to be.