Season of Healing

This year has been a wild ride so far. So many changes have occurred in such a short amount of time. I really feel like this year has been testing my strength and my faith. I finally moved out of a toxic environment and back home with my parents, an hour away from my job. There's been a lot of mental challenges with my job, even though I love it there. I got into a car accident in March and my car was totaled, leaving me with no way to get to work and still had to pay off part of my car loan. It just felt like it was one emotional obstacle after the next. Now, we're half way through the year and I finally feel like things are starting to look up for me. 

Even though I was getting frustrated with how my year was going and it felt like it would never end, I put my faith and trust in God, and I honestly feel like He was purging all of the negative things from my life to make room for better things. Although I didn't realize it at the time, the more I think back on it and try to understand, I realize that everything that happened to me and everything I lost, helped me to break away from my past and completely start over and be free. Even the car that I had was tied to my past, and it being totaled helped to take away that final tie. So I truly believe that was God helping me and pushing me towards fully and completely letting go and moving on. As hard as those things were to go through, I am thankful that they all happened because I ultimately realized they were for the best, and now I feel like I can fully heal from my past and start living a better life. 

Around the beginning of May, I started to really realize that I needed to accept everything that has happened and start moving forward so I could heal. So I cut all negativity from my life and I started to pray more than I ever had. I started to put all of my anxiety and fears into God's hands. Once I did that, it was like an instant flip had occurred. I started to receive so many blessings and answers to the things I had prayed for. All of the things I had been anxious about had been fixed for me. It felt like such a relief, and that's when I really started to realize that as long as I prayed about things instead of worrying, I would always be taken care of. 

Now it's the beginning of June and I feel like I am in a season of healing. I feel happier than I have felt in years. I feel good about my job, I have a new car that I like, and I'm even starting to go on dates with someone I really like. It all feels like such a blessing. 

I truly feel like God has helped me to let go of my past completely so I could move on to better things. And I'm so grateful for everything in my life currently. I had felt stuck for so long and it seemed like I would never be truly happy. I thought that that was going to be my life forever. I never saw myself getting out of that situation. Now, here I am, happier than I've been in a long time and ready for all of the blessings that are on the way. I am just so thankful and grateful for the life I have. 

I'm thankful to be in a season of healing and growing closer to God and just growing into a better version of myself. I'm excited for the future and to see the person I become. 💗